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  • Listening to: the tram outside my window
  • Eating: fire
Hallo zusammen,

I moved to Germany temporarily for work in my field. I've been trying to stay artistically "alive," but it's difficult. For one, I try to spend most of my free time travelling and meeting people, which is fun, to an extent. I found myself pushing myself too hard to be active while forgetting a huge chunk of me is an introverted snail who needs time to recuperate by drawing. 

So my inattentive lack of self-care has caused me to become continuously emotional. I'm happy when I'm riding on trains or buses, when I "allow" myself to "do nothing" because it's normal to do nothing on train and bus rides. I'm frantic in new cities, trying to cram in everything - I'm testy and anxious and sometimes mean to my travel partners. And then I'm sad when I return to normal life, because it's not nearly as stimulating as traveling is.

And there are physiological effects - when I think of all the planning I have to do, my shoulders tense up. And since I am always planning, my shoulders are always tensing, causing me unnecessary chronic pain. That chronic pain has prevented me from drawing, writing, or spinning as often as I want to keep my skills sharp. So I've let my practices fall to the wayside, which saddens me more and causes me more stress.

Anyways, don't get me wrong - I'm really grateful to be here, and I've experienced a lot of awesome stuff and met some wonderful people. But I have to remember, I really can't do it all, I can't give my 100% to everything, and I'm not going to be the best at everything I do. Nothing is going to be perfect, and my expectations can't always be so ungodly high for everything and everyone. Including myself. Because doing so just destroys me and my relationships and my experiences.

I feel bad I haven't been as active in my art, my friendships, my letter writing, etc. as I wanted. But I'm trying - I am really, really trying. And I'm trying to be nice to myself, which, I guess, is the hardest part.

TL;DR traveling to somewhere new does not solve your problems - in fact, it may exacerbate ones you didn't know you had. So be careful and take care of yourself

also I'm much more active on instagram
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  • Listening to: the tram outside my window
  • Eating: fire
Hallo zusammen,

I moved to Germany temporarily for work in my field. I've been trying to stay artistically "alive," but it's difficult. For one, I try to spend most of my free time travelling and meeting people, which is fun, to an extent. I found myself pushing myself too hard to be active while forgetting a huge chunk of me is an introverted snail who needs time to recuperate by drawing. 

So my inattentive lack of self-care has caused me to become continuously emotional. I'm happy when I'm riding on trains or buses, when I "allow" myself to "do nothing" because it's normal to do nothing on train and bus rides. I'm frantic in new cities, trying to cram in everything - I'm testy and anxious and sometimes mean to my travel partners. And then I'm sad when I return to normal life, because it's not nearly as stimulating as traveling is.

And there are physiological effects - when I think of all the planning I have to do, my shoulders tense up. And since I am always planning, my shoulders are always tensing, causing me unnecessary chronic pain. That chronic pain has prevented me from drawing, writing, or spinning as often as I want to keep my skills sharp. So I've let my practices fall to the wayside, which saddens me more and causes me more stress.

Anyways, don't get me wrong - I'm really grateful to be here, and I've experienced a lot of awesome stuff and met some wonderful people. But I have to remember, I really can't do it all, I can't give my 100% to everything, and I'm not going to be the best at everything I do. Nothing is going to be perfect, and my expectations can't always be so ungodly high for everything and everyone. Including myself. Because doing so just destroys me and my relationships and my experiences.

I feel bad I haven't been as active in my art, my friendships, my letter writing, etc. as I wanted. But I'm trying - I am really, really trying. And I'm trying to be nice to myself, which, I guess, is the hardest part.

TL;DR traveling to somewhere new does not solve your problems - in fact, it may exacerbate ones you didn't know you had. So be careful and take care of yourself

also I'm much more active on instagram
www.instagram.com/willowescape…
Blut Geist
A young woman is on a quest to better humanity through modern medical advances. Wishing to travel the world, she takes up the opportunity to work abroad in Germany the moment the chance is presented to her. However, the company specializes in diabetes care products, specifically blood monitors. This would all be perfect if not for one scathing issue: she is extremely bloodphobic. Even the thought of lancing a finger for a blood sample makes the edges of her vision begin to blur. Already a week into work, she realizes there is no turning back, only moving forward. Can she overcome her physiological response to the substance she will be around every day, or will her body shut down her will, and her future?

stayed tuned for the next six months while I find out

ps it's called blut geist because I turn into a ghost when I see blood...
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Desperation
hi

wow

hi yeah i'm here. Sorry I lost touch with everyone over the course of like five years. I'm not sure if I have enough artistic momentum to keep up with anyone, and I'm sorry. I really wish I could be part of an active art community again because I feel like I'm stagnating. But also like?? this isn't my career so I shouldn't be worrying too much. I don't know, it's all very tentative and off balance all the time.

Life updates:
-I'm struggling in college. Not like drastically, but enough that I lose sleep over it.
-I'm moving to Germany for work for a while. Nice
-I'm collaborating with Surviving the World currently and have been doing work for Dante Shepherd for most of the year. I got published again: survivingtheworld.net/ScienceC…
-also I'm kind of making a poster about bread. Still sort of in the works. Who knows tbh

BLUH
I have to get back to thermodynamics homework now.
Does anyone know how to apply Raoult's Law to a mixture of ethanol and water?? any and all help appreciated
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She the Desert, and I the City She Ran From
At the end of August, I spontaneously left Boston for a week and flew to Utah to visit Miss-Toula 

I had no idea what I was getting into. I hadn't camped in over ten years, had never flown across time zones by myself, had never spent more than a few days with one person at a time. I was terrified, but the want to do it outweighed the fear.

I fear being cheesy, but it truly was a spiritually rejuvenating experience. There was so much that was cleared out there in the desert, there was so much that finally, finally broke off and flew away. I fell in love with myself again, I fell in love with this new, unfamiliar place. Toula and I shared many silly, serious, unforgetable moments. We almost died a couple of times ("You're experiencing all the worst parts of Utah this week," Toula said). 

And the smell. Two things that are so, so great about the desert - the silence and the smell. Everything is great about the desert. But those, to me, were the best parts. 

Toula and I talked about spirit animals, and though I don't consider Willow my spirit animal, she, and Warriors, is what brought me and Toula to meet. And the mountain lion is Toula, a master of the land.
There's a lot of play with symmetry with only a few things being asymmetrical. It's meant to show balance and vitality in nature vs. the crowded lifestyle of the city. 
The plants are desert sage, creosote/larrea, and prickly pear.
The scene inside the mountain lion is the Hogback down Scenic Route 12
And, my favorite part, because I'm a nerd, the molecule at the bottom is linalool. Linalool, in one of its stereoisomeric forms, is responsible for the scent of lavender; chiral, it's found in coriander and other plants.
Now that I think about it, it might have made more sense to put a molecule responsible for the smell of sage, but I can't find it anywhere. oh well.

anyways, I've procrastinated on homework for long enough. 


 
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  • Listening to: the "feel good indie rock" playlist
  • Reading: I don't remember how to read
  • Watching: my calories
  • Playing: my heartstrings
  • Eating: fire
  • Drinking: ultra pure lamp oil
here is a rundown of things I am doing:

getting my degree still
It's a hollow trudge but I meander up the path with pride

I'm taking thermodynamics right now and it's kicking my ass
(Surprise! I'm not going to college for art)
building a fuel cell
it smells weird and I need to do more background research

I'm on twitch now
here I am
I try to draw a little every day but sometimes I gotta go live life ya know

I'm currently a hired comic artist
I'm illustrating a co-writing educational comics for chemical engineering curricula at various universities.
It's honestly the most fitting job I've ever come across

Applying to work internationally
yeah I probably won't be in the country for most of next year haha whoops

I finally found the name for the kind of cheese I keep encountering at open studios
It is gruyere and UGH i'm so in love with it

firespinning
I'm cool I swear

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