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  • Playing: fire emblem awakening
august 15th isn't my birthday

it's a date i chose when i was younger because i was scared of the big, unfathomable internet getting its grubby hands on my actual birth-date.

but thanks for the wishes anyways

i will store them in my psyche for my actual birth-date, uncover them, and feel a warm, fuzzy, remembered feeling of some sort.

august 15th is tessek's birthday though

here is a tumblr post documenting his growth:…

what a proud mama i am


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snakes' breath by WillowEscapee
snakes' breath
i really liked the convention of the last one of these i did 
i'm totally into the whole release of smoke and breath from the inside thing 
making this piece definitely helped calm me down

things haven't been so great
i have been on major high alert for some reason, very sensitive, very protective
little sleep. lots of anxiety dreams about next semester. lots of thoughts on mortality and love and rejection and how afraid i am to face some people.
people i hate. people i love. people i don't want to love but do. people i can't stop hating.
i feel out of control and the only people who can speak on my behalf are the snakes in my belly

i may have bitten off more than i can chew, already, even by sitting here and doing nothing. i may, in fact, have to realize that i am powerless to this force 

i just want to be able to eat again without my heartrate skyrocketing and me barreling into a constant state of questioning my value
i was fine last week, i don't know what's happening to me now, and i'm afraid


song inspo……
We are the Kiwistal Gems! by WillowEscapee
We are the Kiwistal Gems!
one of the main reasons why i've been relatively quiet on dA is because i am busy celebrating the moderate success that my kiwi-stal gems have given me over on Tumblr. it's given me a great opportunity to play around with styles while still producing fanart and generating attention huehuehuehuehue

i know, this isn't all the characters. Rose Quartz and Sugilite were never created, nor were other background characters like Greg and Connie. But this is the collection of kiwi characters I have so far, mushed together in this weird amalgamation of style choices. it's weird to look at with them all together haha. I would have to really take time to work at it to get all the colors to make friends with each other, but, alas.

steven universe belongs to rebecca sugar
kiwi-stal gems concept belongs to me i guess
You're Just My Type by WillowEscapee
You're Just My Type
You know you're just my type!
You've got a pulse and you are breathing

hi i just wanted to inform you that i am not sad all the time i promise. a lot of the stuff i've been posting has been kind of heavy but i reassure you that i am totally fine. here is my really old OC Willowescapee dancing with a lizard man to confirm this fact.

I created Willowescapee when I was 13. she was meant to be 16. if she aged normally, she would now be 22. ayeeeeee so old

song inspo -…
i thought if i had the song on repeat all day, i wouldn't get sick of it. i was wrong. i'm pretty sick of it now tbh

the salamander and willowescapee belong to me
je comprends avec un bisou
tagged as ideologically sensitive for the drug usage

being pretentious and writing all my titles in french hgnngngng it's a haphazard french-polishing exercise for me and also english is hecka lame alright

this was originally just a visual translation of my disgusting romantic fantasies. but when art happens it starts getting meaning from what's happening around it, right.
it's august so of course i go into deep spirals regarding me and my purpose and my relationship to other people. i start getting defensive quickly and taking things personally even though they were honest mistakes. it just gets that way. I just get that way.

The Topic of Last Few Nights' Musing was: examining my worth to other people by reminiscing about what they've done for me. Literally, quantifying people's love for me by the actions they've taken for my benefit, even if it wasn't always for their own.
and i know blah blah blah no one owes anyone anything. but my art has always been the highest form of appreciation for someone. my time and years of skill and practice condensed into a gift for whenever i draw for someone, i go into an impatient amount of foot-tapping waiting for them to one-up me, because, honestly, i just want to be one-up'd

i don't want to talk about this anymore.

there was a shooting in my ex-boyfriend's neighborhood. i haven't spoken to him in a year, but i was still scared for him. i thought about calling him. i get trapped in a loop caring about someone who doesn't care about me, then shaming myself for caring about them, then fighting to find a middle ground of basic human decency.

i have to stop giving myself out to people who just don't care, or who cannot actively express that care in action. because that's what i need. i need action. i don't need another asshole who'll give me that "i'll be there for you" garbage when they don't even understand the weight of that phrase.
i need to be there for me, not in little pieces i hand out to strangers like candy.

i'm just frustrated. someone blow smoke into my mouth.

song inspirations………
Les Amies Angelique by WillowEscapee
Les Amies Angelique
I made a joke about having a Sistine Chapel style print on our ceiling and my roommate believed me so I followed through with it. Not like I wasn't going to follow through with it anyways, but. You know.

That cor de chasse (the hunting horn) is probably the best thing I'm ever going to shade in my life

There is symbolism?? Of course there is symbolism. 
I am the angel on the left in the blue. There are 2 and 8 sapphires lining the belt, representing September 28th (the month of the sapphire birthstone), which is my birthday.
The corresponding angel on the right has 6 emeralds on her slit, for May 6th, her birthday

The color schemes are also based loosely on our star sign's "ruling colors" or whatever (blue for Libra, green for Taurus)
There are definitely flower meanings in there as well (me with the gladiolus and the alstroemeria, her with the daisy, delphinium, and heather), but that was so far back in the sketch stage. Mumble mumble here's the link to the flower meaning site…

there are other assorted details relevant to our character but like. I'm so tired of looking at this thing right now. It'll be on our ceiling soon enough and I can look at it all I want then.

this is the most I've ever worked on a piece, at least in respect to consecutive hours. Pretty sure I didn't shower for a couple days because there was a 10 day time limit on getting this done before my roommate's printing dollars for the semester ran out. Thanks, college.

fabric is a bitch


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birthdays Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2015
:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's August 15th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

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WillowEscapee Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thank you!!!
Jasperinity Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2015
Happy birthday! :D
WillowEscapee Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you!!!
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