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Hallo zusammen,
I moved to Germany temporarily for work in my field. I've been trying to stay artistically "alive," but it's difficult. For one, I try to spend most of my free time travelling and meeting people, which is fun, to an extent. I found myself pushing myself too hard to be active while forgetting a huge chunk of me is an introverted snail who needs time to recuperate by drawing.
So my inattentive lack of self-care has caused me to become continuously emotional. I'm happy when I'm riding on trains or buses, when I "allow" myself to "do nothing" because it's normal to do nothing on train and bus rides. I'm frantic in new cities, trying to cram in everything - I'm testy and anxious and sometimes mean to my travel partners. And then I'm sad when I return to normal life, because it's not nearly as stimulating as traveling is.
And there are physiological effects - when I think of all the planning I have to do, my shoulders tense up. And since I am always planning, my shoulders are always tensing, causing me unnecessary chronic pain. That chronic pain has prevented me from drawing, writing, or spinning as often as I want to keep my skills sharp. So I've let my practices fall to the wayside, which saddens me more and causes me more stress.
Anyways, don't get me wrong - I'm really grateful to be here, and I've experienced a lot of awesome stuff and met some wonderful people. But I have to remember, I really can't do it all, I can't give my 100% to everything, and I'm not going to be the best at everything I do. Nothing is going to be perfect, and my expectations can't always be so ungodly high for everything and everyone. Including myself. Because doing so just destroys me and my relationships and my experiences.
I feel bad I haven't been as active in my art, my friendships, my letter writing, etc. as I wanted. But I'm trying - I am really, really trying. And I'm trying to be nice to myself, which, I guess, is the hardest part.
TL;DR traveling to somewhere new does not solve your problems - in fact, it may exacerbate ones you didn't know you had. So be careful and take care of yourself
also I'm much more active on instagram
www.instagram.com/willowescape…
I moved to Germany temporarily for work in my field. I've been trying to stay artistically "alive," but it's difficult. For one, I try to spend most of my free time travelling and meeting people, which is fun, to an extent. I found myself pushing myself too hard to be active while forgetting a huge chunk of me is an introverted snail who needs time to recuperate by drawing.
So my inattentive lack of self-care has caused me to become continuously emotional. I'm happy when I'm riding on trains or buses, when I "allow" myself to "do nothing" because it's normal to do nothing on train and bus rides. I'm frantic in new cities, trying to cram in everything - I'm testy and anxious and sometimes mean to my travel partners. And then I'm sad when I return to normal life, because it's not nearly as stimulating as traveling is.
And there are physiological effects - when I think of all the planning I have to do, my shoulders tense up. And since I am always planning, my shoulders are always tensing, causing me unnecessary chronic pain. That chronic pain has prevented me from drawing, writing, or spinning as often as I want to keep my skills sharp. So I've let my practices fall to the wayside, which saddens me more and causes me more stress.
Anyways, don't get me wrong - I'm really grateful to be here, and I've experienced a lot of awesome stuff and met some wonderful people. But I have to remember, I really can't do it all, I can't give my 100% to everything, and I'm not going to be the best at everything I do. Nothing is going to be perfect, and my expectations can't always be so ungodly high for everything and everyone. Including myself. Because doing so just destroys me and my relationships and my experiences.
I feel bad I haven't been as active in my art, my friendships, my letter writing, etc. as I wanted. But I'm trying - I am really, really trying. And I'm trying to be nice to myself, which, I guess, is the hardest part.
TL;DR traveling to somewhere new does not solve your problems - in fact, it may exacerbate ones you didn't know you had. So be careful and take care of yourself
also I'm much more active on instagram
www.instagram.com/willowescape…
the chronicles of void
I started a project when I first moved to the southwest in January, hoping to keep my mind occupied by the boredom I thought would ensue. As it turned out, however, a ton of my time was occupied by applications for school, my full time job, my part time job, and my deep fascination with exploring the area around me. Now that it's finally way too hot to do anything, I was able to wrap up the project pretty recently and will upload it piece by piece in the coming days.
More is explained in the foreword I wrote for it, but it was a 9-piece challenge that I tried to create to embody how fast exactly I could create a piece that I thought looked g
*gasps for air* I'm BACK I'm BACK
The longer I'd sit on coming back to dA, the harder at less feasible it seemed. At this point, I'm sure most of my friends have left for other platforms, like I have, but there's been a significant lack of...return on investment? in posting my art elsewhere.
Not in a monetary sense. In a connection sense, in a feedback sense. I miss being around other artists and not having my work just get a few cursory "likes" and get buried under the superficiality of other people's lives...*cough*instagram. I miss critique. I miss being challenged.
I'm going to clear out all my messages and try to start again. I'm going to try to set aside the time to b
what am I doing these days
here is a rundown of things I am doing:
getting my degree still
It's a hollow trudge but I meander up the path with pride
I'm taking thermodynamics right now and it's kicking my ass
(Surprise! I'm not going to college for art)building a fuel cell
it smells weird and I need to do more background research
I'm on twitch now
here I am
I try to draw a little every day but sometimes I gotta go live life ya know
I'm currently a hired comic artist
I'm illustrating a co-writing educational comics for chemical engineering curricula at various universities.
It's honestly the most fitting job I've ever come across
Applying to work internation
is there anyone out there for art trades
i am hungry to do the art
maybe like single character trades
I need to work on focusing on small scale pieces and not turning everything into a painting
it's a bad habit
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sounds like an adventurous time exploring and learning more about yourself! take care~
(also so much art on istagram! i missed seeing your stuff)
(also so much art on istagram! i missed seeing your stuff)